When to be an Adult (story)

Just recently I went to a wedding and it was really lovely. Ceremony was a tad bit too long and I think the priest was more narcissistic than me, and I can be a little too narcissistic. Just blame it on my high self esteem. Anyways the reception was nice, however the theme was purple and I really don't like purple. I'd overlooked that for the sake of someone's happiest day.

It was my whole entire family that was invited including the dramatic one. I was hoping that he wouldn't cause a scene, knowing his emotional state. It was great, up until one of the people at the table threw a napkin at him in jest. This person we knew since we were nearly in grade school. I never liked this person, because he was such a jerk to me and everyone in my family. The 21 year old of the family had more of a grudge because of the supposed bulling past. Of course my 21 year old brother is the most sensitive child of the group. I use to be shy and effected a lot, but I grew a harden shell. I also learned how to retaliate when I needed. I don't like bullies and I understand my brother's predicament. With my knowledge of his jerkish past, I try to put things aside for the sake of the wedding. You know it's someone's special day and why ruin it. So like the adult person that I am, I try not to make a scene and enjoy myself, which I was doing until the napkin incident. He then became upset and started to tell my mother that this certain person was doing it again, being the bully that he is. By brother then listed the past things that this person did. Now remind you I knew that this certain person did do it in jest, however I don't think that he would get a rise out of the most dramatic person in my family. My mother told him to stop and calm down, but my brother couldn't. I know that he couldn't let things go for one night. My brother left the room in anger and went to sit in one of the chairs in the lobby.

Everything was calm again until my mother and I got out of the bathroom. The eldest brother ask to talk to my mother. I knew where this was going, so I just went to our table. A minute later my 17 year old brother came in and told us that he was taking my mother home. Then at the car in the parking lot of the reception the eldest and the youngest brother got into a fist fight. The youngest trying to protect my mother from the wrath of the 21 year old dramatic one. We pull out of the parking lot and went home.

So in all of this I sat in the car on the ride home think about this incident. I wanted to do a blog on this to show you that in a time of happiness you really should cast aside differences for one day so that others can have a good time. The past is the past, and letting your grudge with someone cease for a few hours as you dance on a dance floor. It's not good to let your emotions build up, however it's not ok to be the dramatic asshole in the party. What my brother demonstrated is that you don't cause a scene at a party just because someone you hate is there. There are many other people that you may know, go and have fun with them and ignore that person for one night. Be as adult as you can when it comes to someone's ex boyfriend/girlfriend, ex-friend, or someone that has bullied you in the past. If that person is causing the drama then leave the situation. If there is security and someone is itching for a fight, call them. Most of us can be an adult and be mature. We don't like it, but it's a must for situations like this or like paying your bills and going to work. Just remember, there is a time for being an adult and being mature. Then there is a time to unleash your wild childish side.   

Finally Unicorns and Puppies!

Greetings Everyone!

Wow it’s been a while since I written anything at all.  To tell you the complete truth, I first of got lazy and then when I wanted to write something school got in the way.  I struggled to get everything in on time.  By the way, who the hell gives a surprise midterm?  Oh wait that’s my History of Jazz professor…He is the only one out of ALL of my teachers that I’ve had that pulled that trick on us.  The fact that I managed to get a B+ on it astounds me.   However midterms aside, my Sign Language final was fracking hard, when I mean hard, half of the sentences that I had to translate, I had a “What the hell” face on.  Aside if this I do know the five main parts of Cochlear Implants and what they do.  I drilled that in my head 20 minutes before exam…really.  I didn’t do well as I wanted to do.

From all of this I had been disconnected from the known world.  I really felt myself slip into the virtual world with just my laptop and a few social network sites, Tumblr being the new one. It seems that with everything that is going on you just want to sit in the corner, hug your favorite teddy bear and wish that every thing would just be done.  It wasn’t really anxiety, but yet stress that also kept making me sick.  I was losing class time that I needed. With that came allergies and sinus infections.  Yes it was not a good semester at all, health wise.  

Aside of that my life just started to calm down after the big rush on setting up for a Jazz concert that my History of Jazz class put on.  Of course all of my hard work went down the tube when my memory stick died in the middle of trying to find a decent computer to print the programs.  However I make kick-ass cookies!       

The Town Witch 2012 Challenge is still going on and I haven’t abandoned that.  So that’s good news.  Remember you can get on this challenge too. 

Thanks for understanding my reasons why I haven’t had a blog for a while.

Bright and Dark Blessings

Candace

Ps: Remember to never give money to the unicorns, they will spend it all on fairy dust and booze.

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#2012TWChallenge update.

Greetings.

If you are following me on twitter you might know about the challenge that I put up a few weeks ago. If you don't know about it I suggest that you go here.

In a few days I'm starting up the spring semester and It's going to be interesting. I'm taking three classes and after that I only have to take two more in order to transfer down to SUNY New Paltz. So again this challenge is going to help me try to get at lease a B+ or better. There is a math course involved so that's why I say a B+.

Here are a list of things that I am trying to do for the challenge

I've been trying to get up earlier so that I have more to do in the day.
I've been using sticky notes to help me keep track of important events and due dates on certain things.
I also made a calendar out of them.
I've been trying to post inspirational sayings around my work area.
I've been trying to keep my work area organized. Not working so well, I need to organize again
I've been trying to keep my place clean...not working well.
After classes start I'm going to try to limit my social networking to about 2-3 hours a day. I have these sites on more than that...
I also put organize and I list various reasons from it will help you look for stuff to it helps you relax to know where your things are.


I am journaling all of this down and trying to use it as a resource for others. As I mentioned in the last post!

It's been a struggle so far but it's only been two weeks.

Remember you can get on this to, it's not too late to start!

Bright and Dark Blessings

Candace

2012 and a Challenge.

Greetings.

Welcome to the first edition of the 2012 Town Witch blog! For a few days now I've been trying to transform something that is a bit of a burden around and I have struggled with it. On the 5th of this month I decided to take up a transformational project that includes trying to manage my time and to organize my life better. Last semester I didn't do so well due to my lack of time management, so I decided to take up the project at the beginning of the year. I'm doing this not to do it as some sort of new years resolutions because like I said I really don't make them. However I do make goals and my goal is to better organize my self and to journal about it.

This is a challenge to myself to keep myself organized for this coming semester approaching. I also really want to get into the Early child education joint program with Suny New Platz and so that is the other reason why I'm doing this. I really want to get very good grades this year and by doing a yearly time management challenge for myself will help a whole lot. I also hope to write a lot and in the future publish it so that others can see that even someone who procrastinates can get her tail in gear and use different organizational and time management techniques. This is more of a experience book than a how to book.

Guess what! If anyone is up to a challenge then please read on and then decide of you want to do a "Challenge Accepted" face.

Challenge: I would like it if you would pick something from your life that you want to better. Something that is small that can be faced with little baby steps that can be done in a year or so. Think of it as a short term goal set with small goals in between. I then want you to journal your way through the year. Journal your thoughts, your experiences, quotes of the day, ETC that relates or semi relates to what your goal is about. It doesn't matter what just as long as it's something that doesn't take ten years to complete. Make sure it has to do with something that you can change that will help you in the long run. I'm taking up a time management challenge, what are you doing?

If you choose to do it please let me know and if you have experiences that you want to share tweet it. #2012TWChallenge is the hashtag.

Remember this is totally optional!

Bright and dark blessings

Candace

New Years According to the National Calendar!

Greetings and Happy Gregorian New Year

Yes this is the last blog post of the old year. 2011 has been a bumpy road just like 2010, with less bumps though. 2010 I had a major breakup and it left me with very bad thoughts. Lets just say I was internally cursing him. In 2011 was less hell, I did however find a job for three months before being layed off because of an unbalanced drawer. Even though that happen I did work with a few awesome people and they really seem to know what the hell they were doing and have very interesting people come in the store. Like this one guy, I believe he said he is from the Bahamas. He would always come in the store and ask if I need a better job. I would always say yes and then he would "promise" me a job where he worked, which was at a construction company. However of course that never happen.

It has been a slow year, up until about three, four months ago when I started college again, I'm going for my Early Childhood Education degree. I'm attending Columbia Greene Community College, where this semester where I took two education course a history course and a sign language course which I did well in. It seems now I am starting to get my act together. I really don't think that when you get out of high school you are really ready for the real world. As we discussed in my Education 101 course it seems that today's teens haven't really been schooled in the necessary skills to survive in college, from writing skills to time management skills. I blame the required standardized tests that the teachers prepare us for rather then working on real social problems. Then again that's my opinion.

One thing I realized this year alone is that I really need to stop having 40 year old men try to flirt with me. Seriously! I don't know how many times I had these single lonely middle age men try to hit on me. No offense to my ex but I think I'm over men who are like 15 years older than me. Yes they are more experienced but still I think it's a little weird considering that I'm 26, who looks younger than she really is. Can someone please put a leash on the older men for me and what is left of my sanity, please?

No matter how I look at it It has been a year where I really haven't been doing much in the way of magical practice. I feel like I have been having some magical down time this year. It seems I have hit a brick wall and I really need to knock it down some more. It just seems that I have been out of touch with myself and my gods. I hope for next year though that I can get back into my practices and magical studies.

I hope that everyone had a better year that I did. I hope to be posting a bit more next year. I am so sorry about my long haituses.


Bright and Dark Blessings
Candace

Has it been since September. I think so!

Greetings

Yeah yeah yeah I know this has been an over due blog post. I swear I haven't been ignoring this blog, it's just a tad bit crazy in the land of the Town Witch. I started school just before my huge hiatus and it was just went to crazy town. Hey at lease I can say that I know enough sign language to get through a simple conversation. I will be starting my second semester around the beginning of January so don't expect me to try to blog much during that time. 3 months I know but I did put most of my energy into studying and trying to pass. Hey you know at lease I'm trying to get my degree.

Oh and I swear I think I attract 40 year old men because there was a guy in my Latin American History class that may have the hots for me and I really don't want to go down the road of strange 40+ year old men again. Sorry, Lance! However I totally nailed my History 127 final with and A and on top of that in the same class A+ on my Presentation on Mining in Chile and it's affects on the environment and globalization. SCORE!

Oh and in the time of all of this I found a new pagan social site called Pagan-Place.com. Go there and sign up every one there is really nice and very helpful. Unlike Paganspace, which was a nice site at first, but turned into a town for the insane over time. Look for me I try to update daily, screen name is Candace (duh).

I'll still be a kick in the pants type of gal in my blog posts.

Bright Blessings
Candace (Your still sane but a tad bit crazy witch)

Facebook Failed So Much That I Blogged About It.

I am upset with the new changes with Facebook that I have sworn not to use it as much as I use to. What really set me off was the side bar with every one's updates. Do I really need to know who commented on who's status. I really don't care who likes what or who is playing what game. I have had it! Now due to my friends who don't want to make a change to another social media that doesn't stalk you every second, I have to remain on it to see how my friends are doing and to know what is going on with the media today. I have a few groups and pages that I subscribe to for information about the world, different views. I am how ever diligently trying to move over to Disporia with the hopes that someone would give me an invite, right now I am on G+ and Twitter. Twitter I don't mind, actually I love the fact that people can follow me and have a conversation with 140 words or less. (I wish that was longer though! Twitlonger!). Facebook with it's updates every couple of month has been adding up with sheer frustration and the fact that I now can't freaking have a live feed anymore, how the hell can I change that setting!?!? The Crackbook is failing after the second or third updates and I have put up with it this long. It really makes you want to go back to Myspace, yet that has gotten even horrible. I wish there was a social media outlet that makes a update that improves it's performance, instead of having it crash and burn. FACEBOOK YOU FAIL!

Seriously though if you want to follow me on Twitter it's right there on the side of the page --------->

Or look me up on G+ or Crackbook.

I am from the Wild Earth.

This is for a homework assignment in my Education in Diverse Populations class. The assignment was to create a "I am from" poem that gave the teacher a sense of where I am from. Of course I had to include some Pagan elements into it because of my beliefs. I hope the teacher notices it. I hope you will enjoy it! If I had a mistake in something or could add something else please tell me, this is for a grade!

I am from the Wild Earth

I am from the wild earth
a child filled with love.
I am the wander in the wood.

I am from cookies I bake with the eldest female,
The place where she made jams in the summer.

I am from this valley, created from the beautiful Hudson waters.
I am from precious stones that I collect,
and the jewelry that I create.

I am from the old gods that roam the land,
watching, listening, observing and planning.
I am from science fiction, fantasy and role playing.

I am from winters death, springs renewal,
summers beauty and falls disappearance.

I am from the bonfires at Halloween,
from the faces on the pumpkins
and children dressing up scaring their peers.

I am from the red, the yellow, the purple, the green and the blue
flowers from the garden that pop up every year.

I am from the emotional waters
the fires of passion,
the stability of the earth and
the beauty of the wind.

I am from magic
mystery,
mythology,
science and
history.

I am the wild earth, beautiful, created, loving and inspired.

A Personal 9/11 Story!

Where were you when the twin towers were hit people would ask on this day. I would always tell then I was in a class that I dislike and would always dislike for eternity. I was in math class, being taught math that I tried to make some sense. Sense that really made me pull my hair out. I remember after class that I heard from a fellow student that the Twin Towers got hit and fell. I really didn't believe them at first because when I was in high school I was always a tiny bit gullible and shy so I have written it off as a joke. Me shy? It's hard to believe. As I found out that more people were talking about it. I suddenly realize it did happen. I really did happen My government teacher turned on the TV as we went into my next class and what beheld me was a disaster, a sight of sheer horror as we see American Airlines Flight 11 and United flight 175 smash into both towers then towers falling and seeing people falling out of the buildings trying to escape . I was almost in tears that day! I couldn't believe that it was happen. I was always emotional but this hit hard. We got out of school around early that day. When I got home I saw what happen while I was on the bus. The Pentagon being hit by American Airlines Flight 77. Later I got word that United Flight 93 got hijack just over Ohio and the plain turned around and was headed towards the white house until it crashed near Shanksville Pennsylvania. My eyes were stuck on the TV for further developments for the rest of the day. Considering I did live about 100 miles from the first attacks of the day. For a brief moment you can see that people got out of their homes and went to their neighbors and asked if they were okay. This tragic event brought us together for a day then when reports came in that the attacks were part of the Taliban, which is a Muslim fundamentalist group, Islamophobia stuck the nation. I got the fear because of what happen. I also know that there were Muslims in those towers and Muslims that were on those planes, ones that didn't hijack four planes and try to strike fear in our hearts. There were also people of other faiths that died and It did bring us together for a brief moment but that moment was short lived when the hatred crept in. The very next day when I went to work I was told that the workers who were looking for supplies to help with their search and rescue. The store that I worked at supplied most of what they needed and I had a lot of people come in and support those workers and donated their purchases to those who were endlessly trying to rescue people from the wreckage. Things like filter masks and flashlights were really needed and I've never seen people donate things to places like this before. It was really touching!

9/11 will aways be a tragic day for the nation but I did bring people together and that is what I remember the most.

I am (An Ode to The Goddess)

I am (An Ode to The Goddess)

I am the one that brought you into this life
I am the one that has the gift of sight
I am the one that creates a new
I am the one that can be a shrew
I am the one that is the wise
I am the one that brings the night
I am the one that feels the pain
I am the one that has no shame
I am the one that feels no remorse
For when those who hurt the most

I am the one who brings the rain
I am the one that gives life to the grain
I am the one that stirs the cauldron
I am the one that destroys out of bordom
I am the hand that feeds your body
I am the one that can be a tad bit naughty

I am a drop of dew on the leaves
I am a face between the trees
I am a light in the dark
I am the beautiful lark.
I am the face of the moon
I am the hurricane that can come too soon

I am the one in the sky
I am the one that can make your mind fly
I have a triple me
I make you bend on one knee
I am the one of justice and strength
I am the one you can give thanks.

I am the seer of all
Don't wander very far
Because I am the one you can call
Mother of all.

Water

Maybe it was the peace of the Atlantic Ocean surrounding the boat, but I've noticed this week that I have never been so aware of myself. They say that when you connect with a body of water your energy just calms to a point where you can mediate. Now I could not do it much because my grandmother was rooming with me and she is like me a bit of a recluse and came back and read in the room, but when she was out with the others I had the opportunity to actually sit down and meditate on the ocean. As I know from the past water can be a powerful substance, from creating hills and valleys to destroying towns and cities. In a way it has very powerful energy to it. Recently about four years ago while still searching, and still am, through the craft I found that I connect with water quite well. I can understand it's force and it's will to create and it's need to destroy. For a good time I have believed that everything has a duality, what is up there must be a down, where there is a day there is a night, ETC. For this I believe that the same for fire, earth and air water has it's duality, but duality doesn't mean just a good and just a bad. No duality to me means that what one must be created another must be destroyed. It's more a middle ground than anything.

For billions of years water has created hills and valleys and gave us a reason to create civilizations by it's structures. If you have studied history you find that the first towns and the first civilzations are along river ways and oceans. Why is this? Well it's simple when we see settlement in watery areas we see that people start to develop an agriculture society so water is needed to grow those crops to feed their tribe/city/village. Water is also a means of transportation. When we build societies in these areas we also make way for other people to explore and expand their land. We also need a means to transport goods and rivers and oceans are a great way of transportation. Boats were the first means of alternative travel for a long time, from small canoes to large sailing ships. Water is a primary example a reason why nomadic tribes settled down thousands of years ago along with the discovery of farming and domestication.

Along with it's creation of cities and carving out areas know to us, water is also a reason why we see a bit if destruction. From rain's intensive power to knock out all communication with flooding to killing thousands with brutal tidal waves. When water gets out of hand is when earth creates an angry shock that gives water it's big power to destroy cities, with the example of the major tidal wave that hit Japan that followed a massive earthquakes, it was powered by all the quake's effects. Even when we have siesmec activity off land we still see great waves hit shores with great intensity. The tidal wave that hit Japan was the largest that the country has seen in a long time, knocking out power lines and take houses with it. THAT is the power of mother earth's waters! Still it's sad to see people loose their homes, I am amazed how quickly everything has it's domono effect when water is involved. Just recently towns along the Mississippi river was flooded, due to a slow moving storm. Rain in areas have made the Mississippi overflow into peoples' yards and engulfing towns in it's flood waters leaving many homeless in the process. Even though people had warning some wanted to stay. Water is a very valuable resource and it's powerful effect is so great that one drop can just destroy or create. It is also very unpredictable to see if the weather calls for light rain to water your crops or a heavy slow moving storms that destroy entire towns with it's massive effect. About ten percent of the worlds water is drinkable and all of it we rely on it for purposes we see fit and it is carried me to the bahamas and back. Everywhere this resource is very valuable for our survival.

I'm back from international waters

Greetings

I am back from international waters and I do have some things to share with all of you in the future. I did write a blog post while I was on the ship, because half of the time I was bored and inspiration came to me like a ton of bricks. Yeah that powerful! I also wrote a poem and a chant. So I will put those on in the future. My blog post needs some tweaking so expect that in the next few days. Just to let you people know when you are at sea for seven days to tend to get use to the rocking of the ship. So when I go off the ship I felt like the land was rocking and right now I still feel it a bit when I sit. I did get photos of NYC Nassau, Bahamas and Orlando, FL. If you are not friends with me on Facebook please do my pictures are there. Just search Candace Benoit. I do have almost all of my settings to private.

So anyways I had semi-fun but I would never do a cruise again, just saying.

Bright Blessings
Candace

Sharing a Spell: Stop Rumors/Lies

Greetings.

I don't have a wonderful blog post for you this time but I do have a spell to share with you to stop rumors, or to stop someone from talking crap behind your back, or just to shut someone up. I just found this spell today and I though I would just share.

The history behind this spell is very simple. There was a man who was talking crap about a certain friend of mine, and it really bothered him. This person also attacked our youth group and saying nasty things about us being perverted pedophiles and other nasty rumors just to get a following in his ministry. It was more like trying to gain power. So I took this in my hands and devised this spell to stop him from saying anything else about anyone or the group.

Now what you need is,

A small section of cloth enough to make a small face. (The color can be whatever you wish it to be, mine was black)
A needle and some thread

First you take the cloth an cut a circle, after that cut out eyes and a mouth. Now take the needle and thread the needle, with the thread. When you are done start stitching the mouth of the face close. As you do that chant this:

Needle needle sew these lies and rumors inside, let them stay in and never leave. For these will never see the light of day

Say this over and over with feeling and intent. You can also change the words up a bit.

Remember to keep the energy up until the person has enough of their little charade.



I am going on a cruse tomorrow so I don't want to leave my readers with a small fourth of July message. I also hope that everyone is having a good summer and is staying cool.

Bright Blessings

Candace

Happy 4th of July

I just want to say Happy Independence Day to the USA. I live here so I might as well celebrate the Declaration of Independence being signed. I like my freedom!

The sad thing about today is that Thomas Jefferson and John Adams died.

Why Would I help Him?

In the practice of tolerance, one's enemy is the best teacher.-
Dalai Lama

The other night after working on packing 34,000 books and putting them in three different locations at my ex's house. I got home and mother asked why would I help him. I told her that he helps others and does a lot in the Order of the Roc a lot. She then tells me that he took my washer and dryer. I am thinking why is she getting snotty over something that I wanted put to rest when I made the claim to my ex himself. She makes the ridiculous claims of the other side that makes me just wonder about her sanity. Besides her yelling through the phone for me to pick up when I am trying to find the phone. I tell her this because we have three working phones in my house and I can only find one. Where we put them I don't know. Getting back on topic, I was confronted this by my mother and I could not tell her this reasoning for what I do for my ex because I was tired and was suffering from a lack of sleep and lifting so many boxes that I just shrugged it off and went to bed. The next morning the topic was fresh in my mind and I was able to think about it. The reasoning behind my actions with my ex is this, He has helped people a lot in the past he helped me out when I needed it the most even when we were dating. Whenever my back was messed up, even after we broke up, he would fix it and still would. Despite him kicking me out and to tell you the truth I really did deserve it. I did lie about getting a job to him and I am working on trying no to lie like that anymore. He really doesn't deserve to be kicked out of my life because me and him have the same friends. I belong to a martial arts group that deals with medieval and a modern style of chivalry and we are some what friends there so in realization we can still have a civil discussion while beating each other. He is not a bad guy, even though my mother says that he is the devil, if there was a devil. I don't see it, and I try to forgive others for what they did, doesn't mean you can't forget what they did to you. I am still a little mad but as someone who sees things in different perspectives I know what I did was wrong. So it's a win win situation, and I am now passed that. My mother on the other hand, doesn't see it, so I am not going to beat it in to her if she is that thick. I am not going to kill myself in trying!

Thanks for reading

Bright Blessings

Candace

What I have been crafting

Well for a few days I have been in a frenzy trying to find my camera to take pictures of these lovely beaded bookmarks that I have been telling my twitter followers. Guess what? I found it in my car...it was right on top of the various newspapers that I seriously need to recycle soon. So now that I have my camera and that the camera faries haven't taken it for their use, I will show you my new creations.

Enjoy!


Buddhas


Ankh


Penticle and Fairy Jar


Fairy

I hope to make more for birthdays and such for my friends.

Bright Blessings

Candace

Dreaming of Anubis

I found myself laying on some soft bedding facing a wall. I wonder where I am, I try to move and my body is immobile. I can't speak, all I know is this room and with only one eye open. I try to twist and turn and open my second eye, not noticing a presence in the room my focus is on why my body isn't moving. A man comes in he is of average height, gray and with small beard. He tells the presence that they are ready. He then addresses the presence as Anubis. I look at the wall where the shadows are trying to get a good look at who he was. And his shadow emerges like the jackal headed shape and a man's body I know from myths I read. I wonder why he is here and what is going on, trying to make sense of it all, but can't because all I am is confused at that moment of what they are going to do. After a couple of minutes of him giving over me and doing something my dream shifted to another and I don't remember anymore.

Anubis in Egyptian mythology is the jackal headed god that judges souls in the underworld by using a scale and a feather of Ma at. A feather that is light enough to determine who goes on to a peaceful rest and who's heart gets devoured by a beast of the underworld. He resides over burials and mummification's guiding souls to the afterlife. In other ways people also find him the gatekeeper of the spirit world. Why he was in my dream seems to be not much a mystery but a experience.

I have heard that when Anubis enters your dreams one of many things may have taken place. One of course is judgement. When Anubis confronts someone in a trial like setting it means that the person who committed an act is judged according to what they did and why they did it. This also goes for self judgement. Sometimes when Anubis is in your dreams for the face of you wrongly accusing you self of other's misdeeds and if the out come resides on him telling that you are innocent it' shows you to not be so judgemental on yourself. Sometimes Anubis also can give harsh critism in dreams to where he judges you to harshly. This is a step back to where you may be too judgemental on others or too judgemental on your self.

Anubis is can also be a gatekeeper of the spirit world. As some people may have suggested that when people work with spirits and the spirit world some may run into Anubis along their path. You may be surprised that he may be willing to help you with certain problems. Anubis seems to be the middle god, meaning that he is neither good or bad, he helps those who are he sees fit to be helped.

He is also god of funerals and burials so in a sense if you are expecting someone to die he will visit you to give you a message of death. People who are near close to dying may see a deathly like figure in their own belief system and sometime some may see a jackal like figure in which case an be a sign of passing on. Not many experience this though, and those who do know it is time.

There are many interpretations of what Anubis means. These are a few if what I consider my interpretations of why some people may experience Anubis manifest in their dreams. Don't take this harshly these are my own thoughts.

Thanks for reading

Candace.

Candace's Guide for Baby Pagans (newbies)

Candace's Guide for Baby Pagans (newbies)

Here is a list of things that I feel that new people coming into paganism should consider.

1. Don't just read one book. There are other authors out there that give their version on the same subject. I you want your dose of witchcraft, there are various forms of the craft so it's best to research as much as possible.

2. Don't just read 101 books but read other things, like history, philosophy or other things that interest you other than the 101 collection.

3. If you are joining a group/coven/grove/temple do your research. Ask to meet the leader in a public place and try to get to know him or her first before you make your decision. You will find that a lot of those groups might not seem right for you.

4. Try to avoid the very complicated spells, rituals and other forms of various magic. As a baby pagan you are just learning and growing. Try not to summon Cthulhu just yet!

5. Try to go to your local pagan pride day. I know it may be scary at first but you will realize that there are pagans that won't judge you on the lack of knowledge. You will find that they may teach you a few new things that aren't in your 101 books. Plus you might find the workshops fun and educational.

6. Don't be surprised that in books they want you to choose your “magical name”. Don't worry about this because you really don't need one just yet. Eventually it will come but not right now. I have been pagan for almost 8 years and I haven't had a magical name. This also goes for the gods you choose. If you do choose a name try not to go all out, I think that Lady Raven Unicornfairybuttdust will make the gods laugh. Just saying, just saying!

7. Don't worry about trying to do ritual on every sabbat, esbat, every new moon or every occasion you get because sometimes you need to skip Yule or Mabon probably because you are working or maybe other things come up. The gods aren't going to punish you because you missed a sabbat and knowing that it's Yule says that you acknowledge it's that time of year. This goes for non-newbies too.

8. You don't need to buy every tool that is mentioned in a book to put on your alter. Sometimes the best items are the ones that work for you and sometimes the best tools are the ones you make yourself. I have had almost every tool on my alter given to me or made by myself. It's cheaper and It has my energy put in and as you can tell I encourage crafting.

9.. Try to make your own spells. Sometimes the best spells is made up by the individual and not from another source.

10. Sometimes in the craft you might have to get dirty. Any path isn't all about love and light and sometimes you might have to turn to other means. Just reminder that if you do there might be consequences!

11. Remember the best tool for every thing happens to be the mind.

I hope this helps for new people. Remember paganism isn't for everyone so if you feel like you want to take up another religion it's completely fine as long as you are on a path worth choosing for the individual and not what others want.

(If anyone wants to add anything on please feel free to put it in the comments, thanks)

Bright Blessings.

Candace

Solitary Witch

Why I am a solitary witch some may ask. Well it all started with stories of people who get into a coven and after a while is thrown into a drama infested world which sets me off to a whole new view of reason to stay where I am when it comes to my craft. In the community there is talk of some of the people that go off being snobby and self-centered. Even some elders in the community today seem not to want to bother with training newbies because in their minds eye, there is so much information about Paganism/Wicca/Druidry/etc. These are some stories that I heard so don't yell at me and note the word SOME. I went to a bookstore the other day and I seen so many books on one subjects. I get why some older people who have been in the craft longer then they can count, can tell someone to read stuff on certain subjects, but yet sometimes lack the understanding that young people look up to older people in the craft for more information other than what is in books. It does sadden me to think of this. Years and years ago when we didn't have so much information on these subjects we did look for teachers. I think that when it comes down to it young people turn away from covens and revert to solitary practice and online information of the craft because it's more handy than a “teacher” telling you to do your research before they can start you on the craft.

I have been pagan and a witch for 7 going on 8 years now and I have heard all the stories from people who turned to solitary work because of claims of misuse of authority and the mistrust of “teachers” who claim to be your only hope in learning the craft. Some times I wonder if I should start doing what others haven't and that is teaching others what the craft is all about, instead of all this nonsense and garbage yet I remain solitary.

Last reason why I am solitary is that I like to do things my own pace when it comes to learning about the craft. See I have aspergers and it's hard to learn with other people so the anxiety of a coven (crowds) will get the best of me. The level of anxiety of being in a crowded room has gotten better over the years but will not gone since I am a Aspie.

Here You Can Have My TV!

As I was flipping through my TV today and there seems to be nothing on I was thinking that I might as well give away my TV. Why do I say that well because all we have is reality TV and not enough good programing these days. Yes there are still good shows out there, such as Sanctuary, Merlin, and The Walking Dead and yes these are some of my favorite shows out there. On the other side there are horrible shows such as Jersey Shore, Dancing With the Stars, and other shows that display much drama that makes me want to just shut down the cable and watch my favorite shows off of Netflix or buy the boxed sets for cheap off of Amazon. Might as well most of the time I don't even turn on the TV anymore and a low monthly fee seems reasonable. Even the news seems to be about who is doing what, and what is the latest scandal. Yes I am talking about the recent “Weinergate” scandal which I don't care about it done lets all get on with the real news. By the way I really don't care about who is pregnant. I would hate to be famous and have to deal with all of this crap from the media. Most of this country has very voyeuristic tendencies, it really makes me sick because there is a camera in people's houses filming their "interesting" lives. Me personally I really don't want a camera in my house filming me eating a sandwich and filming me doing a private circle for a sabbat. It would really feel awkward to have a camera in my face when all the time.

Now I know that other people have this as a gateway out of everything that is going on in their life and I get that's why a lot of people watch it and that's alright but I really don't need to see it so that is why I don't watch most of the crap that is out there. Drama free life please!

Bright Blessings

Candace